im scheduled for surgery tml at 10 am, god noes if i can wake up..
it scares me tt wat ive noticed is each new illness is of a higher more extreme substance..

so i have the worse fever plus migraine at the same time every 2 yrs.. then it was the cornea tear i had in my left eye.. then came the herpes zoster/shingles on my left hips.. not forgettin the food poisonin tt send shivers all over my body.. n now i have tis lump on my neck caused by an infection of noone-noes-wat yet..

my hands still hurts from the blood tests.. but more than nythin i cant help but to tink there's gonna be sumthin wrong wit the procedure tml..

im hopin tt it'll heal before the perf cuz it means a big of deal even if its jux for charity

mum's not gonna send me cuz apparently, the baby is god-damned much more important.. fuck the wats-ur-face baby.. i hate u

hopefully i can still make it for jim beam finals.. go fan remix, go nuxs

thnx to all those who helped me durin the last 2-3 wks when i was broke.. i appreciate it alot..

look past the get up n u'll see desolation

didnt tink it wld be hard to hold back tears
fallin out, more like pushed out
dun bother expressin ur misses
im not in the circle, i get it..

*i will be^~