in tis life family is the most precious gift we're given, the most sacred, turn ur back on them n tt is when u drool of nuthin.. but wat do u do when u dont have one.. when everyone else is so pre-occupied with their own important stuff, when u get locked out of built walls n pretension like everythins alright.. i guess u cld only turn to ur fwens, fwens who evidently have their own families.. it makes it so much harder cuz its their family tt is prioritised or gfs/bfs for tt matter, so where do u stand among all those important people, ure jux a sideline thing, u dun get no attention like how sisters tell each other stuff tt noone noes, like how brothers engage in competitive sports.. its wat they do tt bonds them together, a similarity, n i dun have tt.. cuz im of a different kind, a kind tt sum hate or even fear.. wit everythin's tts missin in my life, only one thing cld revive me n tt wld be u, cuz ive found comfort only in u, ur presence, ur words of wisdom, ur care n concern.. most of all ur love..

no, u dun noe, tts jux it, u nvr known cuz ive nvr been able to tell u, tt im angry at u, tis entire thing bout biasness n inequality, u shld have warned me but its more than tt, its the fact tt u found urself leavin, n i feel like sum outsider who doesnt belong nymore, its like u traded me in for sumone u tot is better, n i wanna noe why, are u ashamed of me? are u embarrassed? jux tell me wat did i do wrong.. then u sae tt we're here to be closer n tt nvr happen.. n u seemed so happy wit wat u have now, i wish sorie was enuff..

it happened jux as how i alwaes imagined it wld, so why do i feel tis wae, how can sumthin tts suppose to make u feel so complete end up leavin u feelin so empty, i jux hope so much tt i can talk to u, i nd u n tt scares me..

maybe fantasizin bout a life u nvr had does qualify u as a loser, but then again, wearin a price tag across ur forehead probably makes u one too, i dunno, maybe the truth is there's a lil bit of loser in all of us..

being happy isnt havin everythin in ur life be perfect, maybe its bout stringin together all the lil things..

maybe we'll jux get thru it, tts all tt we can ask for..

the photo rite here, tts wat i will be.. keepin my dreams alive, u'll nvr noe when i wld grace runways wearin couture inspired fashion spread sumwhere in milan.. tis walk will make me famous.. work it, intensity in ur eyes.. believe it..

*nD or duN nd, i gOtta woRk it oUt^~

a whole lot of maybes..

still waitin for sakae, hope it'll be before my cash runs out..

i dun get it why do u have to sae tt ive went up a notch when its not even true..u brought me up n u smashed me down in 3 daes flat.. tell me again how much i mean to u..

its true then, sumthin like tis only happens if one party did sumthin particularly wrong but wat do u do when u dun even noe..

my brain is doin extensive damage to itself..

cryin is a form of therapy, tiny little things i do to forget the world.. gatherin all other means to achieve wats best.. indulge baby

its jux too bad tt joanie's not the winner cuz i really feel her photos..

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*it'll be over soon^~