im feelin it, like in the deep pits of my hormonal system, not really hormonal, sae heart.. as in feelins, emotion..
its so freakin hard, its near impossible.. i dun have tt sheer determination thing i used to have.. u noe wat.. tis is like totally random, but the thing is when u noe tt u have a fwen who is facin sumthin hard in life, wat u do is u help.. im not saein tt u will necessarily noe, i mean there will be signs of differentiation in character, okay fine, u jux dun exclude fwens in nd in nywyaes.. like when ppl are like emotional, every little thing could potentially hurt.. i nd to be included in stuff, like help take my mind off things, those kind of things will help.. whens like the last i actually talk on the phone wit u like really really long bout nythin tt happened or the last time we went out jux cuz sittin at home is dead bored, or have tt binge while watchin vcds, or even style each other hair or try on sumthin really owful clothes jux for the fun of it.. i noe its not like my birthdae or like a special occasion but these things help to bond ppl, tt invisible rubber bands tt binds us together, the longer u wait the further it strecthes n when tt happens u jux dunno when it would snap leavin an empty space in between..

usually i have like a draft thing before i actually post but tis is like totally on the spot thing.. maybe theres errors in spellin or watsoever, n usually i'll go thru jux to edit like 3-4 times over but tis time round im not gonna care..