sumtimes ppl take quite sumtime to realise one's mistake.. sumtimes too long tt everythin's gone beyond one's grasp.. never take sumone for granted cuz u'll never noe when he'll be gone.. dun repeat the same mistake twice cuz it shows no progress at all.. learn to love oneself before lurvin another, only then will u be truely happy..

jux cuz ur spirit's down n everythin feels so wrong doesnt mean tt ppl have to help u out, it is based on their own sincerity.. but i guess we humans expect to be appreciated for every of our efforts..yet dun be too quick to decipher cuz it doesnt mean tt they dun care when they dun express their concern.. actions speak louder than words (phrase from shawn), dun u tink tt i can see wat ure gettin at.. thru ur actions, ur ohh soo big actions..n then go all ard denyin every single bit of it.. then again its kinda my fault cuz im still stickin it thru eventhough i noe there's no known hope..

when u have quite a lot of close fwen u tend to lose ur loyalties to sum.. meanin u side one rather than the other, u keep sumthin from the other or u tell the other sumthin tt another told u.. it gets to a point of tt sumone's realisation of ur actions being precipitously distinct.. when did u start to kick me out of ur inside jokes..?

waitin has alwaes been a non-enjoyable experience for nyone.. it drains one's energy n even let our imagination run wild to a point of tinkin too much.. tinkin of negative things tt may not be true..

my absence dun make no diff tts the one reason why i didnt go.. i cant stop myself from tinkin tt im not valued n i dunno why..

You're left out all alone
Wondering where did they all go?

Been jaded, hated,
Who'll be around when the limelight's faded?
Been shot down, pushed out
Made to smile when I wanted to frown

Always taking a bow
Always working the crowd
Always making the round
Always playing the clown
Who'll be sticking it out
Who'll be staying around
When the lights go down?

finally got my christina back to basics album.. still dirrty is great but one song tt caught my attention is understand..

i used to tink tt happiness could only be sumthin tt happened to sumbody else
everybody believe, everybody but me
n i've been hurt so many times before tt my hope was dyin so sick of tryin
everybody could see, everybody but me

but then u came into my life
u opened up my softer side
i could see into ur eyes
n suddenly i realised

chorus
i made u tink (u dun understand)
all the times u didnt understand, why u couldnt jux be my man
i made u tink (u dun understand)there were many walls u had to climb, if u really wanted to be mine
i made u tink (u dun understand)after all the hopes i put u thru, now i see tt im in love wit u
now i hope u finally understand

so many tears i had to cry but u had many more of ur own u had to dry
but u stuck it out, n ure here wit me now
n rememberin the daes i pushed away ur love u called my bluff and u still stayed ard
yeah u figure me out, said u got me down

n there's no wae to lie to u
u noe me better than i do
baby, ohh, u see me thru
i'd be no good witout u

chorus

baby wont u listen now, cant u see jux wat im talkin bout
said, baby wont u listen now, cant u see jux wat im talkin bout
time went on n i was wrong
to keep mu distance for so long
so afraid u wouldnt stay
but u never turned away
alwaes right by my side
ure forever in my life
dun u go cause i noe
tt in u ive found a home
n i could see into ur eyes
n suddenly i realised

chorus