nuthin went accordin to plan, didnt get to go to the free workshops tt i look forward to.. n after noein jux tiny details of a certain stuff i came to a bigger conclusion but guess it wasnt wat i tot it was, things are alot more complicated.. but decisions are bein made n one will follow the other, so how?? i wan but i dunno.. or i dunno but i wan..

chalet was okay at first, though i still felt sad n a lil numb.. ppl were fuckin snobs so well, watever ye.. at least fwens are ard.. but it still didnt feel rite.. i went off to clear my mind n azi went wit us to the beach.. it was really nice, my first time actually bein there.. like everywhere..

when i actually followed shawn to send zaf n firman home, didnt noe it was like the worst decision yet.. i felt useless after.. like didnt tot it was gonna turn out tis wae.. worst things happened, u didnt have to do tt infront of me, like u promise not to.. n tts like the 2nd time already, the hurt tt was put across was unbearable so i jux ran, ran off to the roadside to squat like sum lost child lookin for acceptance, an embrace..

dun wanna drag on bout tis.. ohh yar, thnx shawn loads for helpin me but u didnt have to apologies cuz i was bringin it upon myself..

had fun actually wit qie in the car, singin like stupid old pop songs.. imitatin singer's gestures..Llz.. the ride was very scary cuz shawn went on 140km/h which is wae wae too much for the faint-hearted(meanin me) so, i was screamin for dear life n thnk god nuthin bad happen.. if it did then things may have been better for me..nvm..

directed to another person, well two different ppl: ur such a sinful shameless ignorant person, u try so hard jux to get to do tt one stupid act but i guess u didnt get to nywywaes cuz of who u are..ugtly freak.. n then there's tis uncontrollable slut who cldnt keep his hands to himself, u really have to go to every extend jux to get pleasure.. n it didnt happen for u too.. hahhk..loser

nywyaes, sumone's suddenly a doctor, like tt suria show.. the doctors wit only PSLE qualification..hahahk, n she really did look like ning baizura..

ohh yar, OCH was scary.. i mean i went durin the late mornin n it seem really scary.. even wit all of them ard me.. the furnie thing is, the first time i went up tt stairs wit pan n syahril, pan had tt sudden breathin attack thing..furnie ar but kesian gitu...hehe

*tears have dried up after three consecutive daes sheddin them.. why does hurt have to be successful in every of its attempt, why is it alwaes my fault even when it isnt, punishment to an error made in life is not to be decided by another human bein.. i guess i'll leave if u really wan me to^~