things are alot clearer now..there's tis thing called divided loyalties, u tend to side one party.. inequality, i must sae.. now i noe the diff in u ppl.. thnk god some helped n others sympathize..oh hell, alot of ppl noe.. damn it.. cant keep mouth shut..watever..

muchious gracias to u for carin so much, guess im lost wit all the complications..healin though its takin its own sweet time but i can adapt.. well, tryin to..

hate ur fuckin presence, cuz of u, if u werent ard nuthin i despise wld happen, u cant seem to control urself, doin all the wrong things, irritatin ppl but u dun realise tt u cant even keep up to it if ppl were to do it to u..mummy's boy shit face, go to hell..

harny's really engaged.. wow.. a lil tear shed..hehz.. many misSes.. beautiful babe.. really nice food, wished i had eaten more..

scores are jux scores so freakin big deal..asshole, theres more yet to come..

i tink im gettin comfortable performin, jux nd to calm myself down, throw away all the anxieties.. i noe i can.. do it.. yup, im better than tt..

i used to tink tt suicidal ppl are jux stupid, i remb tt time when a sch girl jumped down to her death jux outside sch n i tot tt it wldnt ever happen to me.. but i tot wrong.. i wanted to.. i tink i still do.. things may be better now but i dun feel tt it is, im not given a chance to explain meanin things are not yet settled.. dunno if its on purpose or due to circumstances but its kinda continuin..

thnx for lookin out for me ya.. i guess im too different myself..

funkies or Xies.. decidin..still, hard..