we did quite well for cheer rock, ending up with fourth placin.. thnx a whole lot to my pump it...hahhk.. we then went to usa cheerleadin camp which was so awesome.. danielle is so hot.. learnt new techniques which is so much easier to do.. being assertive n aggressive makes stuntin alot cleaner.. nice noein cheerleaders from other teams though sum were snobs.. USA (clapx3)
had a performance at jrg lib which was okay for sum parts n bad for another.. pissed at myself for not doing it right..when everythin ended, we started takin pics of our crew but a certain individual was the first to pose as if belonging to us.. extra.. ohh yar.. there's quite a lot of extras lately.. but i'd sae there are three main ones.. dun they realise tt they are not invited to any of our gatherings.. god.. there are certain exception for ppl who are not sphyntrix or sophistifunk who will alwaes be accepted with open arms.. not tt we're biased, jux how it goes.. i dun hate this ppl, i only wish they realise tis quicker..

we auditioned for ria hip 15 and we got in..WooHoo.. we prac for three daes for the audition n more daes for the finals..had to go to rehearsal during cheer trainin.. haiz.. then straight to a last minute prac at esplanade..we received consolation prize n i guess tt's it.. its okay for me.. with the mistakes tt i make during the show..

i guess there's nuthin more to expect from me.. ive been rather hesitant in everything tt i do lately.. there's no more nice comments from fwens for my performance.. well, maybe afew but they are only the type tt is made only to make ppl feel better even if its not true.. maybe i shldnt jot tis down but i feel tt i have to.. with new members ard, its obvious there's a new kinda favouritism affair goin on among us, ppl likin another.. it all goes to show tt tis is so not fair.. everthin i do is put down.. there's parts where im really feelin it n ppl criticise me for tt.. like im not gd enuff.. maybe it is really true.. sumhow i feel tt i shldnt have join e recent comp.. tink i pulled the whole show down..

Its like i've shut myself in a box n i cant get out.. truly in it, shut the lid n hope to suffocate.. the most excitin part of me has gone n im not sure im left wit very much..

ive been tryin my best to change certain things in the squad like proper coachin, mats, even the uniform jux for three individuals' likin so as to tempt them into re-joinin but i only received three NOs.. i was really excited when one saed tt one was joinin.. it is sumthin tt i look forward to for the whole of tis yr.. but the excitement i felt didnt last for long.. it was shattered by a simple sms.. really wretched.. all tt i ever wanted was to be as close as we were before.. saw tis as an opportunity to relive the moment but i guess not.. i have to learn to move on.. everythin's change there's no benefits to get stuck in the past..