tink, decide.. do i nd other's opinion? but i dun wan ppl to noe yet.. ive told certain ppl already.. scared.. u tink its the rite choice.. can i still work my wae thru to get to become my ambition.. wait.. is tt really wat i wanna be.. i dun noe wats true nymore..lost..confused..still.. dunno wat to do.. actually i noe.. made clear..thnx.. but im scared of takin the plan into action.. y? ive nvr been so afraid in my life..

wats worse was ytd it kinda happen again.. sumthin i cant tell.. tink its obvious, then dun tink.. i dun wan ppl to noe.. i dun really noe myself.. damn.. got to noe its actually unnecessary.. worried sick to a point tt i sleep.. i nvr like sleepin while worryin..it sux..but i cant get away from tt..

its true wat tt certain person sae.. im like alwaes so happy on the outside but i got all those weird stuff goin on inside.. its the problem.. ive tot bout it recently, but i didnt tell nyone, didnt wanna annoy them wit the same thing again.. dunno when the rite dae will come but then again if i keep waitin for the rite dae then when will it happen.. if ever there's a diff, plz act normal n dun criticise.. i nd strength not disparagement.. thnk u..