nuthin's lettin up.. things are not gettin any better than it has nvr been.. am i destined to lead tis life or can i change the outcome? im definitely lost.. lost in my group of fwens.. i jux dunno who to turn to nymore.. there's alwaes certain things bout an invidividual tt makes me hold back.. I cant seem to share all my pains n sufferings wit nyone ..

Im fallin deeper by the second.. not receivin ny help.. i cant make it thru the rain nymore.. i really nd help.. who can i turn to..? is there nyone willin..? I've nvr been in such a situation before.. can i get out of tis so-called poverty cycle.. I did one big mistake, n tt is fallin behind the pack.. im not sure weather i can catch up to them or even be nearly as gd as them.. will i ever be?

how can i be stronger when all i do is cry everytime u return to tt dreadful place.. im being alot more emotional than i've ever been.. really tot it wld get easier after each time but it only proves me wrong.. will i ever get use to it?

im now kinda the middle person in a relationship.. got really close to one side of it but only to find out later tt i have to compromise..sacrifice my time spent wit one.. its not fair.. how can u do tt? why do i have to listen to wat u sae? im in nd of lurve too.. why cant u tink of me as well..? I cant let go.. i'll nvr let go.. cuz ure really nice towards me..

where are YOU when i nd u? i nd to get tis done.. so i can breathe easy.. ive been cloggin everythin inside, dunno why but i nd to find u.. to sit n talk for the whole nite jux like how we did before.. before u were actually too influenced by ur significant other.. too controlled.. is tt how u wanna run ur life for eternity?

feel like givin up but ive nvr given in before.. will tis be my first? shld i? i dun wanna lose out..
rather somnolent at the moment.. jux too hard witout people i noe ard.. not myself.. how do i phorsize to the person i wanna be n not change watever tt i dun wan to?? the qn tt have alwaes been goin thru my mind..

i noe for sure tt if i were to jux get it over n done wit, i wld be alot more confident of myself.. change in tt one instance.. but im jux too fearful of it, but why? external factors takin in consideration.. sucky life of mine.. y was i in denial when everyone my age was goin thru wit it like it was normal cuz it is normal for godsakes..