suppose to meet shawn earlier but i could only wake up at 10plus.. so shawn had to wait from 7.30 onwards cuz he was all awake at his grand's..when we finally met at cck control station, yusuf was reachin already..hehe..the usual late me..yusuf cldnt meet shawn earlier too cuz he went to cwp to get shawn the billabong wallet of course witout tellin him.. its rainin then so we went to the back of lot1..shawn asked me to dance for him so he cld record wit his cam..initally i didnt want to but i finally did.. i'll show u the vidz if u wan..hehe..kinda furnie though..did dun phunk, tomo n girlfight.. we then took pics before goin off to unity to meet syahril, zaf n pan as usual.. then went to house while waitin for pan n syahril to go home n change.. we then went to al-ameen.. reach there at about 5 plus.. then ayu arrived shortly after.. we buke..had nasi daging merah n milo dinosaur.. then firman arrive n we went to beauty world jux sittin doin nuthin at all.. then went to sit sumwhere else n played pranks on passerby.. mostly, ayu n pan scare the wits out of tis two aunties.. we then went to mac to get drinks while waitin for shawn since he met up wit his other fwens.. when shawn came back we headed to the blocks of flats nearer to the 985 bus stop.. went to 7-eleven before goin to bukit timah cc.. they dance together while i jux sat there singin to myself..tryin not to cry, not to shed ny more tears tt i've poured out even before tis dreadful dae.. syahril checked my bag n took out the present tt i bought for shawn..n thank god he did saw it..hahhk.. then shawn, yusuf n firman went down to buy sumthin but got to noe after tt tt they were smokin together..yar yar..same old, same old.. nywyaes, cc was closin soon, so had to pack up n leave.. when we were downstairs.. we walked into the slight drizzle where i sang "unwritten" by natasha bedingfield, quite loudly..
feel the rain on ur skin noone else can feel it for u only u can let it in noone else noone else so speak the words on ur lips drench urself wit words unspoken live ur life wit arms wide open today is where ur book begins the rest is still unwrittenfelt a great feelin after..noein i have to accept the fact tt shawn goin there for quite sumtime.. we then headed to the bus stop n waited for the buses to come..while waitin, we took turns talkin to shawn, hugging n mostly crying.. it was my first time seein shawn in a really bad state.. it took awhile before the bus came but we still hugging till the bus actually left us behind.. then ayu bus came, i dunno how she can manage to stay strong exteriorly.. when thier bus finally came, yusuf, syahril n me didnt board the bus cuz we wanted to send him home.. took the bus to shawn's, i sat beside him.. tt moment will alwaes be cherished.. cuz i noe tt will be the last time tt i get to sit beside him n rest my head on his shoulder n smellin him..cuz he smells real nice..when we alighted, we walked in silence..alone..kinda separated from the rest.. upon reachin the void deck shawn saed he had to go up now..tears jux flow even worse tis time..we hug sumore before i gave him his much awaited present.. n yusuf too.. we cried for even longer..some makciks were walkin past so we went to the other side to sit.. by his reation, shawn was surprised tt i actually took time to write down my tots n feelings accompanying wit the cd tt i burn for him so as to remind him of me n a tshirt consistin of his fav n my fav colour.. more hugs were exchanged.. cried harder.. i can still remb how hard it was to stop myself form pressin the lift's button to prevent him from goin up.. we then walked hand in hand to the nearest road to grab a cab. shawn was lookin down from the 6th floor.. still can picture tt in my minds.. i broke down further..thnk god yusuf n syahril were there..if not i wldnt have carried on walkin.. we waited a little while at the bus stop..lookin up jux hopin tt he would look down from the kitchen.. but he didnt.. we then took cab home.. send syahril to bangkit.. then went to yusuf's house.. i slept over there.. i was so unstable.. i jux had to have sumone to rely on.. thnx yusuf.. N a very big thnk u to shawn.. for helpin me achieve the things tt u set for me.. like being closer wit my family jux by givin me those two lovely hamsters.. for influencin me into goin for fridae prayer where i actually found inner-peace.. for fastin durin tis meaningful month.. for helpin me be truthful to myself n not hide the person tt i am within.. for consolin me whenever im down.. for jokin ard wit me whenever ure ard.. for regardin me as ur greatest fwen.. u changed my life for the better.. n im thankful for tt n ur sincerity in helpin me sort-out my wrecked life.. im missin u, i'll nvr forget u n I LURVE U..
