"fie i don haf much time left u know.. wadever it is, im sorry and thankful for everything..."
instantly after wat was typed, tears flowed from nowhere i can trace.. well, actually.. it was traceable.. from the pain i felt..jux tinkin of him not bein here wit me is such a torture.. i dun wan tt but i noe its unavoidable.. guess its part of my life though i am strongly against it..

i hate the feelin of not knowin.. but i now noe.. n it feels great.. thnx.. u noe who u are..

i've gotten closer to the other side of the squad n i guess tt brought up sum kinda unhappiness wit the first side.. im only gettin closer cuz they are alwaes loiterin n not goin home.. u guys shld noe tt i hate comin back home.. i dun feel welcomed at all.. im still searchin for tt.. for a sense of belonging tt i once had durin my last yr of sec sch..

i oso nd to find out certain things so as to clear rumours of sum kind.. it sux to noe tt sumthin is not true, yet ppl tink it is.. n still not be able to prove it..

i cldnt wake up jux now for our outing cuz of me loiterin till the wee hours of early mornin.. i swear i didnt noe tt we were suppose to meet at 12.. plans were cancelled.. guess im the spoiler.. but its okay.. dun have to rush the nxt time ard.. not gonna ton tml or thurs so as to make sure of my presence durin the postponed "fieldtrip"..

ohh yar.. after noein certain stuff tt are on goin behind my back, i can safely conclude on ppl who are trustworthy n those who are not.. lets not put down the names.. kays..